May 31, 2010
As we climbed into the boats that night, the stars illuminated the sky, reflecting on the quiet sea. The black waters gently lapped at the side of the boat. We climbed in, silent except for the occasional gasp. "What are those?" we asked one another. Finally, the boat driver explained.
These magical, graceful, glowing, ever-dancing green globs in the water were particles that had been charged by the sunlight during the day. At night, they simply glowed. They danced. They floated. They chased. They played. They hid. They giggled. I was completely awed by these mysterious green globs.
We drove to the Islote and I let my fingers dip into the water, leaving a green wake. I looked up and the stars twinkled down at me; I looked down and the globs glowed. The beauty was overwhelming. I found it hard to say anything, save an occasional "Wow," or, "Look!"
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Today I was asked by my friend Antho, "When was the last time you stood in awe of God? Like do nothing else, but just think of the greatness of our God?"
My thoughts drifted to my run on the beach last night into the sunset. I thought of the unrelenting pound of the waves on the sea shore and the bright orange moon shining down. I thought of the wind blowing through my hair and tasting salt water on my lips.
"Last night," I replied. But my thoughts didn't stop there. They continued to wander... and flow... and think about other God moments. Climbing a huge rock over Christmas break and sitting hundreds of feet in the air, looking over an enormous lake. A worship service I had been at work I was just flooded by God's love... his affection for me-- for humanity. And my tears wouldn't stop. I thought of the red Amazonian sun set, of the African singers around the campfire.
And then, then I thought about the green globs.
Antho then interrupted my flowing thoughts, "And how do these moments help you in your every day life?"
And then I was back to wandering thoughts. My journey through deserts. The days I wake up and don't feel God. When I struggled to find passion or motivation to seek God. When seeking him is hard. When I'm weighed down by the mundane. When I've allowed the cares of this life to crowd out his glory. When I've allowed myself to lose awe at his majesty.
"These moments," I replied, "remind me that he is worth it, real, near and powerful."
Antho continued, "Do you think most people just stand in awe of who God is?"
"No," I stated, "but I don't either." I thought about it. Its like God smacks me in the face with his majesty and knocks me to my knees. I really wish I went out and did it periodically. Just went and let myself be awed by who God is. But I don't. I wait to be smacked. And then... then it hits me.
But then again... its about the small things in life, isn't it? Our ability to be amazed by the little things. A sunset. A bright, orange moon. A laughing child. A beautiful voice. A friend's hug. A gentle whisper. The rustle of wind. The sound of an ocean. The smell of summer. A green, glowing thing.
And I was back to thinking about the green glowing things.