On Facebook...

Last week I went through a major deleting-of-Facebook-friends stage. Within 24 hours I had deleted more than 200 acquaintances. Something got into me and I couldn't shake it off. I felt squirmy thinking about all the hundreds of people who were on my friends list who weren't my friends, but could click on my profile and look through my life. I'd like to think that they'd have no reason to do so if they aren't my friend, but I'm guilty of looking through more than one non-friend's profile before.

And so, I was unable to focus on my paper due the next day until I went through my entire friends list deleting people. I started off with 870 people and I wanted to get down to 500. Unfortunately, I wasn't able too; I'm at about 650 at the moment.

My friends laughed at me and thought I was ridiculous for wanting to unfriend all these people. They asked me why. I've come up with a three main reasons as to why these excessive amounts of Facebook friends were bugging me...

1. Facebook feels cheap. It does, doesn't it? No one wants to find out the news through Facebook. Why? Because that means that you're finding it out at the same time as that one girl you met at that one party three years ago... or that one guy on your list but you can't remember how you met, but you have mutual friends. But what if I only had friends and family that I wanted to know about, keep in touch with and know what was going on in their lives? Perhaps it wouldn't feel so cheap.
2. Eight hundred and seventy friends is excessive. To be honest, so is 650. There is no way that I know 650 people, much less care about them all. There is no way that I care about knowing all about their lives, seeing their weekend party pictures and knowing about their stressful exam weeks. Like I mentioned before, I don't like thinking of how many (hundreds) of them can (or do!) click through my profile and can just know about my life...
3. Facebook doesn't actually help me keep in touch with most of them. Keeping in touch does not equal stalking... or even reading their status updates when they appear on my newsfeed. Keeping in touch would mean that their status update would cause me to go write on their wall, send them a message or call them! Then Facebook would be "helping" me keep in touch.

I've seen these reasons amplified even more in the last couple of days. Lucas and I finally decided to update our relationship status on Facebook from "in a relationship" to "engaged." We had originally decided to wait for a long while to make sure that no one "super close" would be finding out through Facebook... because Facebook feels cheap. So, two months after the proposal we changed our status. We were trying to delete any notification so that it would just "switch," but there'd be nothing to like or comment on. But no, there were still plenty of ways for our friends to be notified. Except all of our friends knew two months ago. And still, our walls have been cluttered with congratulations as we "begin" this new stage together and asking if we've "begun" to think about when and little do they know that I got my wedding dress yesterday, we booked a venue last week, and our date(s) are definitely set.

And so, I will continue to dwindle down my Facebook friend count... hopefully, one day, I'll have everyone on my list meet one (but hopefully more) of these criteria:

1. They're family. Regardless of how close I am to family, or how often I see them or keep in touch, family is family.
2. I talk to them/see them regularly. I want to be able to communicate with the people I talk to and see regularly. Facebook is a fabulous way of doing that. I want to be updated on their lives, but hopefully, because I see and talk to them, Facebook won't be the primary way of knowing about them.
3. Their Facebook posts will urge me to start keeping in touch again. As much as I'd like to keep in touch with everyone, I can't. But if the people on my friends list post things that will urge me to go write on their wall, send them a message, a text, a letter. If seeing what they're up to in life will encourage me to schedule a Skype date or shoot them off an email, then I definitely want to let Facebook help me keep in touch!
4. We were really close friends in the past. Again, I wish I could stay super close to everyone, always. But I can't. But I don't ever want to delete people of my list who were near and dear to my heart simply because they aren't anymore.